Flying Blind: Crashing & Surviving With a Song as my Parachute

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There is an argument in the studio and I am furious. One of my best friends challenges me about how songs are made, and I lose it. Fury without harness erupts from some primal memory, seven million years ago, when I was a chimpanzee, surviving by murder and deception, and I call the song a “cancer.” One singer, who barely knows me, says I shouldn’t use that word, and the other two singers, who know me well, break into tears; the three of them hug, and I turn away, blinded by the heat in my eyes, alone, no hugs for a killer who wants heartbreak in his melody rather than structure and rules.

I am autistic among people who expertly carry a tune. I cannot sing, or even hum, but this song is speaking to me, making its impossible demands. The song risks abandonment, but does not care and gives me another task to complete its birth, and this last thing breaks the attention of musicians and composers, and the song gets left behind. I am mute with disappointment and hurt, but the song continues to mock my mind, repeating itself in a language I cannot convey. This is how Neanderthals thought, and my own ancestors, too, **** sapiens right up to 50,000 years ago: in impulses and ideas and instincts, but without syntax and nuance.

But in the desert more songs come, bewitchingly. A mood expresses itself as an idea, then replicates (but with a tiny mutation of tone or tune), and then blossoms into an answer for that mood. Thunder, following a drop of rain, or a wave, rolling over a tide, or a glance into the rocks showing burnt orange when a moment before a flash of yellow sunlight glinted off my truck’s mirror. These songs of self, endlessly surfing every sensation in a normal day, shatter schedules and shred my intentions: what is there to search for, except this desire to express how I feel and where I am and why I cannot stay, in a song?

To whom do I sing? The beautiful thing about making music is that the music itself does not care. Songs wish only to be heard, by anyone, by anything; a tune is as happy echoing in an empty valley as it would be flooding Carnegie Hall. This is the great mistake musicians make, crippling music with their own insecurities, wishing for their songs what they secretly hope for themselves, for acclaim, for reward, and, most heartbreakingly, for applause.

Of course this does not make much sense, unless you are like me, somebody who is alive because you dance, somebody who dances to live, wondering as I do what magnet there is in your heart for a good song, how stupidly attracted you are to a sound that makes sense and is familiar at the same time that it stuns you with its novelty. And if you are like me, you imagine driving away from everything you are, into the desert, maybe, listening to the world as a song, and the music you hear might as well be wind beneath your wing.

Click here for Sean's song. The Moonlight Project will be on blu-ray soon; all comments get a copy

34 responses

  • Debrah Leonard

    Debrah Leonard (Deleted) gave props (17 May 2010):

    yes, and thanks for sharing the link.... !

  • Kevin Kott

    Kevin Kott gave props (17 May 2010):

    My vote!!!

  • adniloj

    adniloj gave props (17 May 2010):

    delicious!

  • Pilar Coll i Gatells

    Pilar Coll i Gatells gave props (17 May 2010):

    Salut i llum

  • ! Mario Scattoloni ¡

    ! Mario Scattoloni ¡ gave props (18 May 2010):

    You blow me away Seanie with yours words & images....

  • Carlos Aviles

    Carlos Aviles (Deleted) gave props (18 May 2010):

    Cool shot. My vote

  • John Linton

    John Linton gave props (18 May 2010):

    You never cease to amaze (and entertain) me.

  • John Linton

    John Linton said (18 May 2010):

    Your video is packed full with wonder...full photography and the musical snippets are enticing me to want for more.

  • Russ Wills

    Russ Wills gave props (18 May 2010):

    Beautiful shot! Voting

  • Mike Olbinski

    Mike Olbinski gave props (18 May 2010):

    Outstanding!

  • Norman Baade C.

    Norman Baade C. said (18 May 2010):

    Nice shot Seani, my vote..!

  • Llorenç Rosanes

    Llorenç Rosanes (Deleted) gave props (18 May 2010):

    Siempre nos llevas de viaje a otros mundos con tus imágenes y músicas y videos. Fantástico Sean, realmente fascinante!

  • Respect Nature

    Respect Nature gave props (18 May 2010):

    Blue yr vid brought tears to my eyes when Seema's voice went from vid sound to studio sound.

  • Chris Whitney

    Chris Whitney said (18 May 2010):

    Never can get too much Blue. The desire to reach inside and create, keep looking and searching!!!!!! It shows in your work.

  • @seemasugandh

    @seemasugandh said (19 May 2010):

    Gorgeous visuals and "Seanie-speak"! I love it! XO

  • samed ennour

    samed ennour said (21 May 2010):

    my vote!!!!!

  • Jason Platt

    Jason Platt   gave props (21 May 2010):

    outstanding visuals/words/music...flexing those mind muscles again seanie!

  • Tone Fotland

    Tone Fotland (Deleted) said (22 May 2010):

    Cool!

  • Muhammad A.Qurban

    Muhammad A.Qurban   gave props (22 May 2010):

    RAD !! and awesome.

  • Alexis - Now on Flickr

    Alexis - Now on Flickr gave props (24 May 2010):

    Wonderful stuff Seanie, as always. My vote for the image, I wish I could vote for the song as well.

  • Paul Lavallee

    Paul Lavallee gave props (24 May 2010):

    Another beauty!

  • eithne mythen

    eithne mythen gave props (28 May 2010):

    Voting, a super image, love it..

  • Jessica Hardin

    Jessica Hardin gave props (5 Jun 2010):

    OMG Seanie, this is absolutely gorgeous!! You have such a way with your images and words of bringing out true, raw emotion. I love this, my vote!

  • JamesHarmon McQuilkin

    JamesHarmon McQuilkin   gave props (10 Jun 2010):

    This capture makes my eyes sing and dance at the same time in harmony

  • Elyseo

    Elyseo said (20 Jun 2010):

    great!!

  • Robert Sand

    Robert Sand said (20 Jun 2010):

    A rare and welcome visit.

  • Mojca Savicki

    Mojca Savicki said (11 Aug 2010):

    One of the Aboriginal wisdoms goes like that :-))

    Two of the greatest gifts, given to the human race, are the ability to express themselves and sing in a diapason which exceeds capacities of other living creatures, and the ability to make instruments that produce music sounds.

    Music can be a part of an individual creativeness or entertainment but is of such importance that belongs to separated and special tasks. It has an impact to all mankind; its energy is healing - for body and a planet. Listening of a peaceful music, adjusted to a heart beating, has a positive ascendancy on nerves and mind. Every single person has music talent as music has an influence on everyone. Music is a language of soul, a voice of the planet which communicates to the universe.

  • Kathleen Mercado

    Kathleen Mercado (Deleted) said (12 Aug 2010):

    WOW!

  • Roxana Brivent-Barnes

    Roxana Brivent-Barnes   said (30 Aug 2010):

    Absolutely love your dreamy words, and the image!

  • Pilar Coll i Gatells

    Pilar Coll i Gatells gave props (8 Dec 2010):

    Molt de temps. . . una abraçada.

  • Zapata Juan P

    Zapata Juan P   gave props (13 Dec 2010):

    Fantastic ... great image !

  • Leslie Hunziker

    Leslie Hunziker   gave props (13 Dec 2010):

    this is divine!

  • Aadi Mishra

    Aadi Mishra (Deleted) gave props (2 Feb 2011):

    OMG!

  • Karen Zimmerman

    Karen Zimmerman gave props (17 Mar 2011):

    Your poetry is always as fantastic as your images...and they dance together brilliantly. I hope to hear your song!

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