Day 14/365

In truth, I've never felt that connected to New Year's before. When you spend your life convinced you're not a good person and that you don't deserve good things, it's hard to appreciate the dawning of a brand new year, because for you, it's just... another year of disappointment, fear, pain and sorrow.

But this year is decidedly different. I am free of all the lead weights of years past, free of my own negativity, free of my past, free of my guilt, free of my pain and shame and anguish. For me, this truly is a brand. new. year. So today I celebrate many things: the New Year, the new life I have before me, and the the chance to finally become the person I was always *meant* to be.

I believe that we are set on a path and if things go according to plan we end up somewhere very specific. I do feel in a lot of ways that because of what happened to me that path was drastically changed. But now, I have an opportunity to still end up wherever it is I was supposed to be in the first place. Or maybe-- even somewhere better.

This year I celebrate myself. The things I've survived, the things I've conquered, and the path that I've set for myself. Welcome to Day 14, and to those who are just now joining their own paths-- Happy New Year.