Day 161/365

Today I went shopping again. I finally got my glasses fixed (remember my trip to the ER a couple weeks ago, where I lost a lens? Yeah, finally got them replaced!), I tried on (but didn't end up buying any) more dresses. I did buy a really pretty headband accented with a peacock feather. At the same time I bought this peacock inspired pendant as well, and though it was very fitting.

As I talked to a friend about my jaunty new headband, I said something along the lines of how much I was really starting to like that my closet was starting to actually have some STYLE, which it's never really had before. I always hid in my clothes before... bag shirts, shapeless jeans, comfy shoes. I liked color, and although I tend to gravitate to blues and greens-- I do have bright springy colors that I wear now and then. But stylish is not really a word I would have used to describe my wardrobe in the past.

I still have a long way to go (as I do in so many things), but with 3 cute dresses to my name, a stylish embellished headband, some cute summery wedge sandals, an infusion of new colors and cuts.... I'm starting to feel like I can actually be SEEN for once.

And I'm ok with that.

Ok, I'm mostly ok with that. I won't lie. I still have moments (a lot of them) when I just... hear those old thoughts. But I have ammunition now. Because I know those old voices are wrong.

I have a laundry list of things about myself that I love, that I appreciate. And yes, my newly discovered "style" is among them. What's not to love?